The Girl I Am...
I am the girl you'll first notice after the ... well.... 10th take.
I am the girl with the hefty laugh and the sunshine smile.
I am the girl who smiles with her eyes if she really smiles.
I am the girl who wish she liked sweats as much as jeans...but jeans are more comfortable.
I am the girl who will say she could care less about her hair, but spends 15 minutes blowdrying it because people say its pretty.
I am the girl who sits on her bed at night and contemplates her thoughts to God while stairing at her wall, but when seriously talking or listening, looks through the ceiling.
I am the girl who hides behind her grin well... but I am the girl who gives up trying to hide anything at all from those who care.
I am the girl who LOVES to rock out...but...
I am the girl who relates more to thoughtful music.
I am the girl who sees things colorful when everyone else see it gray, and I am the girl who sees things gray when everyone else sees them black and white.
I am a black and white kind of girl.
I am the girl whos first thought in the shower is, "Hey God..*pause* ... I love You too..."
I am the girl who writes letters to people who may never get them.
I am the girl who pours her soul out on paper.
I am short and perky, I suppose.
I am Blonde.
I am Wise because my Father in Heaven is Wise.
I am My Father's daughter...heh...
I am a friend of God.
I am a twinkling deep-blue-eyed soul.
I am Not always able to understand myself.
I am Understood by Jesus.
I am such a hopeful romantic that it drives my friends insane.
I am having a seriously hard time to typing out subtle lies about myself. But
I am More than just a conqueror.
I am screwed up without Jesus.
I am a cadillac girl.
I am a creative mind.
I am the kind of girl who loves more than she wishes to at times...but
I DO love, even when its hard.
I am a straight-up Jesus-girl.
I am saving my first kiss and my whole self for the man God has for me
I am struggling.
I am More than just a conqueror.
I am just as happy doing background work as I am in the front where everyone can see.
I am in love with the plan God has for my life.
I am in great desperation for God to keep me in my place.
I am the girl who feels rejected amidst admiring peers.
I am a loner in a lot of things
I am not afraid to point to God to share my heart.
I make so many mistakes, I could have a hard time living with myself.
I am NOT perfect.
I am the girl who cries over the memory of holding your hand.
I am the girl who gave up her childhood dream.
I know God will show me His dream for me.
I am the girl who cries with no tears.
I am the girl who writes songs about you that you'll never hear.
I am hurting.
I am dealing.
I am growing.
I am moving forward even though
I am the one who proposed the step back.
I love to talk to God out loud in my car.
I am not afraid to be real.
I am crazy, plain and simple.
I am fully convinced that you'd really go insane if you weren't crazy while living this life.
I am tired of feeling rejected.
but its okay.
I am turning 18 in a month.
I am becoming a woman I think I might become friends with.
I am so so so in love with my Savior, even when I have a difficult time to listen to HIM.
God, I'm so fricken screwed up.
God, "...thats okay."
I am a wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor.
Who are you, Lord that you are mindful of me? Who are you Jesus, that you care for me?
God, "...I AM."
I am not...
God, "But I Am."
But I'm not...
God, "But I AM."
God, "You are beautiful, Dear One, because I AM.
You are more than just a conqueror because I AM.
You are My chosen child because I AM.
You are of royalty because I AM.
You are in Love with Me because I AM first in love with you.
You are hurting because I AM.
You are moving forward because I AM.
You gave up your dream, but I AM giving you the desires of your heart.
You love to rock out because I AM your Rock.
You are the girl with the hefty laugh and the sunshine smile because I AM your joy and I AM the Sonshine in your smile.
You have a twinkling deep-blue-eyed soul because I AM your breathe of life. You breathe My Spirit.
You are wise because I AM wise.
You are Loving because I AM Love.
You have my Heart because I AM not only in your heart, but you are in MY heart.
you are sensitive because I AM sensitive to all things.
You deal because I AM dealing with you.
You are real because, My dear Child, I AM REAL.
you are because I AM.
AND I AM YWHW. I AM that I AM.
and My Child... I AM in love with you."
I am His.