I know I have not really written in a long time, but you know how people go through periods where they write alot and then they don't for a while?
yeah. Thats how its been for me.
I am going to say something:
God has been bringing me back to the basics of what His grace and mercy has to offer me.
It is no secret that I struggle with one form of pride or another. But what God is showing me... well... my pride would call it shallow to my own oppinion.
But God is telling me that this is just as if not more so important than all the deep thoughts that I ever think about and as I get into this, my friends I AM SO COMPLETELY humbled.
God is just molding my heart right now.
To be honest, I've been unable to write for numorous of reasons. But one of those reasons is that everything I've been learning I have had no words to discribe.
I've been going back to the basics.
Its so weird because this is such a new place in my life, and I need to go over the founding stones that keep me upright before my Jesus so that I can now apply each one to these new situations that are thrown at me.
but I'm ready to get my life in order. and I have been doing that. I am learning that I need to be repenting every day! I need to TAKE His mercies every morning and living in peace with the fact that GOD IS RUNNING my life, not me. He is just showing me how to stand on my own two feet with my standards and my boundries. I never knew I could be shaken, but now that they're being tested, God and I can work out the glitches and yeah, I screw up, but each time, God gives me more courage, more of His strength to say, "No. I can't do this." Or "No, don't cross this boundrie" or "No, I don't think its God's timing" and STANDING on it even when I know it hurts.
guys, I'm breaking out.
I'm done fitting into a mold that everyone has me in.
YES, I'm crazy.
but I want something new.
do you know what God showed me that was?!
a new starting line to a new race.
You know what I have to say to those of you who think I'm going shallow?
judge not, and you shall not be judged.
I am just so amazed that God is pacient enough to show me everything over again.. everything that I should have learned when I first accepted His gift when I was 3. But he's taking me to this new level of living EVERY DAY, the kind of day that you go about living without really thinking, for HIM, and for doing it unto Him, and doing in the FREEDOM of Him.
1To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
2A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
3A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
4A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
5A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
6A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
7A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
8A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
There is a time for everything. Right now, God is showing me this. THIS is such a perfect example of the simplicity that God is showing me.
I will abide under the wings of the Highest One. Yes, though I may slip out from under His protection, and though I might run out from underneath His covering at times, I know that He is always there, watching close behind, quietly calling my Name. "Princess of Faith. Come Embrace My Heart, dear Child. My mercies are new every morning. Repent. You are Mine."
God, it is so beautiful. thank you.
I'm forever greatful to You. and I'm forever greatful to the cross.
God, you are SO beautiful. You are so simply Wonderful. I wish I knew the language of Heaven to explain to You how much You are to me.