Get back to Jesus, Kids. Grow up.
I've been feeling meloncholy as of late. Not because I'm depressed or having a pity party, but because I've been doing quite a bit of thinking lately.
I've been thinking about how religious so many people are. I've been thinking about how two-faced so many of the people I know have become. I've never thought I was two faced, but to be honest, I HAVEN'T been honest. I put on the "everything is okay in love and ministry" face and that was never right of me. Its NOT okay in love and ministry. Its WRONG when it goes against God's word. And its WRONG when it causes disunity between His believers. One thing that God has laid on my heart as of late is the unity God wants for His followers to have with one another. We will be known by our love for one another.
Another thing: True love is revealed when hard times come and when its hard to love the people you say you love.
I've realized quite a few things with this truth: FIRST, that if you ask God to show you how to love like He does, He WILL, and it won't look like what you thought. And SECOND, many people do not know how to love the way God does.
I never knew this until the last year of my life.
When people say they love you, they really don't know they do until they DECIDE to love you anyway and PROVE that love through their acts of love towards any said person.
It has been a deeply saddening realization that what I have suspected to be true is true. I often love people more then they will ever love me. My naivety is that I believe they love me back in the same way I love them.
Something that hurts me as I watch many of my peers is that to them, (and even to me, to a certain extent) love is conditional.
I'll love you only as long as things feel good.
I'll love you only if you agree with me ALL the time.
I'll love you as long as you don't hurt my feelings.
I'll love you as long as you stay away from the person I like.
I'll love you as long as YOU take responsibility for why our relationship didn't work out.
I'll love you IF.
IF, IF IF.
I HATE THE WORD IF IN THIS CONTEXT!!
God NEVER used IF when He told us to love one another. He NEVER gave His people, His followers a choice - a preference.
I love you EVEN if I can't be your friend right now because I don't agree with you.
I'll only love you IF you continue to go to the same church.
IF you try to work things out (like they have the right in the first place to assume that you didn't.)
IF you'll sweep the issues under the carpet.
IF you'll suck it up and go back to the people who critisize you the most.
IF you match up to MY ideal of courage.
IF you do things MY WAY.
I'm sorry... when did God say IF when it came to the unity of His body?
"Now thumb, you only have to help the OTHER fingers IF they can cordinate to what you're trying to do. If they aren't quite as cordinated as you, you can just be limp."
"Now hands, you only have to put your hair up in a pony-tale IF it works the first time. If not, you can let your eyes and mouth deal with having it wave all in its face."
Since when did God give us permission to slander each other within the church walls.
Yes! the church walls.
Are we not TEMPLES of a Holy Spirit?
Whether we contain anger or bitterness and how it not only then DWELLS in your temple but will then COME OUT and be taken in by OTHER temples of a Holy God?
Church, GET ON YOUR FACE.
You are NOT exempt from Judgment! You WILL stand before a Holy God and account for every person you ever gossipped about - every thing you DIDN'T do. EVERYthing you did. Every Idle you chased after. Every man you laid with, Bride!
Each ONE of us is guilty!! So who are we to pass judgment on each other if it is nothing to do with encouraging one another to do the right thing or building up each other with positive rebukes and true love and fruit coming out of the way we show conCERN for each other?!
YES I'M UPSET!
I'm not HERE to feel comfy in this religion where we can answer all the right answers and pretend we've got it all together cause, you know, we're saints now.
We'd BETTER be on our face repenting before a Sovereign God and we'd better HOPE that we're one of the sheep when He is weeding us out because I can assure you, the harvest is nearing with each day we waste living the New and Revised 21st Century American Dream reading our new americanized, de-sexualized, watered-down versions of a Bible we only buy because the covers are cool.
I'm a freaking, damned to Hell - SINNER.
The only thing that makes me different is God's Grace that, praise the Lord, is in the business of transforming my heart to be soft and more like Jesus.
Without that, I'm done-fore.
But just because someone writes a convicting blog where YOU ASSUME they're NOT doing what they say the church should do, doesn't mean that they're not doing it.
You don't know where they meet God alone in their room.
You don't know what kind of prayer they dive into for the people they dont even know.
You don't know if they obey God even down to the little "pick up that piece of paper"s.
You DON'T know.
Its just YOUR responsibility to respond to God.
When God gives a word to you, you need to go before Him and deal with Him about your issues with people, and to be honest, ME.
Stop going to your "best friend". You don't even know how long God will bless you with that friendship. Stop going to "Your Mom". YOu may not know what kind of HER issues are rubbing off of you.
Stop going to "YOUR thought patterns". You're NOT always right and you never know what or HOW you are thinking may get in the way of the sort of things God wants to teach your heart.
I'm done with people not going to God about stuff. I'M done with that.
Now stop caring about what some dumb girl is saying and start wondering if God wants to speak to YOU through it.
For God's SAKE.