"my heart strains for something - it reaches for nothingness in my love-world that exists only in mere blankeness." I wrote this 6 years ago... Before my life got complicated. sometimes i wish that my love-world was blank again, with only God to teach me. mostly though, i'm beginning to accept that God is enriching the kind of woman He plans for me to be through all of life's experiences. And encounters both pleasant and not. I wont lie... I definitely chuckled at these previous dramatic woes. Back when my life was waiting to be lived. Surely I still have one to live now! But having a blank slate is so different than one filled with other people's markings...and its supposed to be YOUR art. Its tough not to harden one's heart. 6 years can take a toll on a person. But if one wants to pursue holiness & purity, one must keep one's heart soft. [Eph. 4:17-20]. Its just interesting how different things can be in such a short time. But God is consistantly good. amen!